Hundredfold

Hundred Dollar Bill

This is a reflection on the Mass readings of the day.


If we strive to live the Christian life sincerely, with all our hearts, without compromises, we align our lives to the teachings of the first reading. It tells us to give freely to God, without holding back; to make sacrifices to Him out of the full generosity of our hearts. This can mean restraining the impulses within us that could lead us to sin, or fasting at appropriate times, or striving to give cheerfully to our neighbor when we least feel like it.

It is a good way to live, but it can be exhausting. Sometimes, in the midst of the beatings this world deals out to us, it can seem that we just don’t have anything left to give.

It is thus well to remember that this isn’t the whole story: Giving to God freely, out of gratitude for all we have been given. The other part of the story comes to us in today’s gospel, which offers us a great promise: That those of us who give everything for the Gospel will receive back thirty, fifty, a hundredfold in this life, and eternal life as well.

We don’t yet understand what the eternal portion of this promise will be like, for, as St. Paul tells us, “What eye has not seen, and ear has not heard, and what has not entered the human heart, what God has prepared for those who love him.” (cf. 1 Cor. 2:9)

But the hundredfold on earth: This comes from God’s providential curation of every moment of our lives. God would love to curate everyone’s life this way, but when people recede from Him, He respects their freedom. He still gives them good things, “for he makes his sun rise on the bad and the good, and causes rain to fall on the just and the unjust.” But He does not take up the management of their path in the same way that He does for those that fully, freely, and completely give their paths to Him. And His management of one’s path, and all that befalls one, brings the utmost of fulfillment and joy.

While He allows suffering to impact these beloved disciples of His, He uses that suffering, along with countless tender acts of the most personal and attentive love, to build their overall peace and happiness. Indeed, a hundredfold in a sense is an understatement, for no fraction of the interior happiness that God concedes to the heart given over to Him is attainable to those who withhold from Him.

Ideas for conversation with the Lord: Tell Jesus that your whole heart is His, and that you want with all your heart only the happiness that He can give. Tell Him that you trust Him, that if He leads you through the dark valley, He does so to bring that much more happiness, to you yourself as well as those you love.

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Not a Cure-All

Pills

This is a reflection on the Mass readings of the day.


Jesus’ promise in today’s gospel sounds so consoling: He will give us His Spirit, who in turn will fill us with the truth. Which of us would not wish to be filled with supernatural knowledge? The Church has beautifully laid out the names of the gifts that the Holy Spirit brings to us: Wisdom, Counsel, Fear of the Lord, Piety, Understanding, Knowledge, Fortitude.

We can very easily mistakenly think, however, that these gifts, these transformative and elevating gifts, provide us with a superiority that allows us to skate through life, successful at everything we attempt.

Firstly, it must be noted that (unfortunately?), these gifts do not really aid us in professional success, except indirectly, in that they make us the kind of reliable and discerning person with whom people may entrust valuable charges. So, if you are looking for the gifts of the Spirit in order to make money, you are out of luck!

But secondly, they do not necessarily make us “happier” in this life. The gifts of the Spirit invariably come accompanied by the great gift of Charity, the third of the theological virtues, and this virtue can cause a world of hurt. With the gift of Charity, we do not only feel our own pain and our own sorrows–we feel those of others as well. What the world calls “empathy” is lived at an entirely different level with Charity.

Nor do these gifts necessarily make us tangibly successful. Look at St. Paul in the first reading. The lives of the apostles were not only filled with persecutions, but also at times with mediocre results. Paul crafted a beautiful discourse tying the imperfect worship of the Greeks to the Good News of the Gospel. The crowd basically said “whatever” and walked away. The Holy Spirit does not override the human freedom to reject God.

But in the end, the Holy Spirit unequivocally brings fulfillment; He brings a deeper and more powerful happiness. That happiness is compatible with all sorts of woes that we may suffer: Failure, depression, exhaustion. It stems from a deep-seated knowledge that we are loved, and that our decision to love in return carries with it fruits for eternity.

Ideas for conversation with the Lord: Tell Jesus that you value the gift of His Spirit above all other gifts, and that you will happily take all the difficulties of life, even amplified, and ask only for this most sublime gift.

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Smart Phones Don’t Bring Happiness

iPhone

This is a reflection on the Mass readings of the day.


Today’s psalm: “The Lord is my light and my salvation.”

When we think of what makes our lives better, our minds might tend toward reality, or tend toward fantasy. If they tend toward reality, we might speak of health care, or convenience technology such as smart phones, which put control over many things in our lives right at our fingertips.

If our minds tend toward fantasy, we might consider the stuff of movies: If only I could find a fountain of youth, win the lottery, wield magic, etc., then my life would be utterly transformed into happiness.

When, in the day to day, we think of what makes our lives better, the first thought that comes to mind might not be Jesus.

His coming, His passion, death, and Resurrection–it was not like a lottery win. From one day to the next, for example, all the apostles’ worries were not over. Even having met Jesus, even having experienced His Resurrection, as wondrous as that was, they still had a difficult walk ahead of them to walk, one that would for most lead to martyrdom.

Nor did Jesus make their lives more convenient, like technology does for us. Quite the opposite. They went from the relatively convenient and familiar life of fishing to one of spending themselves tirelessly for others, in many cases in foreign lands.

And yet, “The Lord is my light and my salvation.” Mary of Bethany, who poured perfume over Jesus’ feet in love and gratitude in today’s gospel, understood this.

Jesus does not transform our external realities. Well, correction: He does help us with those as well. After all, Lazarus of today’s gospel had just risen from the dead at Jesus’ command. Jesus’ life was full of miracles of healing. Also, by God’s grace, Christians in all ages have made the world a better place, inventing the very notion of hospital care and universities, and striving to insert more justice and respect for the human person into the imperfect institutions of government.

But transformation of the exterior world is not the focus of Jesus’ mission. Rather, “The Lord is my light and my salvation.” Jesus brings light and salvation back into our souls. We find in our relationship with Him a permanent, overflowing joy that transcends and permeates all the imperfect, passing realities of our exterior world. As the first reading says of Jesus:

I formed you, and set you
    as a covenant of the people,
    a light for the nations,
To open the eyes of the blind,
    to bring out prisoners from confinement,
    and from the dungeon, those who live in darkness.

When it comes to truly making our lives better, no fantasy, no reality comes close to the experience of an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ in our hearts.

Ideas for conversation with the Lord: Ask Jesus in this Holy Week to bring your heart back from distraction with the fretful external realities of this world, to the true light and joy of your life, which is His grace and friendship. Tell Him how grateful you are, like Mary of Bethany, for His gift of self for you, even if the world doesn’t seem particularly impressed by it. Ask Him for the grace to center your life on that which really brings happiness.

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Rain is for Everyone

Women in the Rain

This is a reflection on the Mass readings of the day.


Jesus uses a beautiful comparison when He commands us to love those who are unjust, to love our enemies. He tells us that this will make us children of the Heavenly Father, for “he makes his sun rise on the bad and the good, and causes rain to fall on the just and the unjust.”

We must love the unjust and do good to them. But how do we do this good? First, we beg that same Heavenly Father, not just to send rain upon them, but also to rain extra grace into their hearts, that they may learn how beautiful that thing is that they are missing–union with God–and strive for it. A choice time to do this is when Christ’s body and blood are raised up in offering for sin to the Father at the consecration at Mass. Pray fervently to the Father at this time. Show Him His Son, and ask that by the infinite power of that Son’s sacrifice, the Father visit the hearts of sinners and convert them. He will do so if we ask, just as He answers the intercessory prayers of Our Lady, who once stood at the foot of that very same sacrifice.

But also, we must do good to those who do not do good themselves, even in little things. We should take pains to make their lives easier, more pleasant, happier in little ways. Jesus does not desire the happiness of the unjust in order that they may be converted, but rather their conversion that they may be happy. He thirsts deeply for the complete fulfillment and happiness of every human person. Even at moments when we cannot give a person that which is most valuable, we must give what we can to bring happiness in little ways–just as the Father shines His sun on the just and the unjust alike.

In the first reading, Moses proclaims great blessings to those who follow the commandments of the Lord, and the psalm says the same. Jesus’ new commandment is the Commandment of Love. Blessed are we when we follow it.

Ideas for conversation with the Lord: Ask Jesus to infuse into your heart the gift of charity, a virtue that cannot be learned but rather must be received from God as a gift. Ask Him to fill your heart with the same passion for others’ happiness that fills His own heart.

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Overflow

Waterfall

This is a reflection on the Mass readings of the day.


In today’s first reading, St. John tells us that “God sent his only-begotten Son into the world so that we might have life through him.”

Perhaps sometimes we think of this life that Jesus brings as a simple static state; we were dead, now we are alive.

But in today’s gospel, we see a symbol of the sort of life Jesus brings. It is not a one-time flick of a switch. It is a constant, super-abundant outpouring onto us of His love, His grace, and happiness.

So it was that Jesus, who had brought life to the people in today’s gospel through His rich teaching, went on to pour out upon them essentially infinite sustenance for their bodies as well, in the form of a limitless distribution of bread and fish.

And His promise to us: “Give and gifts will be given to you; a good measure, packed together, shaken down, and overflowing, will be poured into your lap.”

Per the unanimous agreement of the saints who have experienced intimate dialogue with Jesus, nothing is more frustrating to Him than our habit of putting artificial limits on the richness of the life He brings, through our lack of trust.

In our prayer life, we should be daring with the grace of sanctity and happiness that we ask of Him, both for ourselves and for our loved ones.

Ideas for conversation with the Lord: Ask Jesus to make His dreams for you, not yours, come true. Tell Him that you want no limits to the gifts He gives you. In spite of all the disappointing realities, and suffering, and insufficiencies in the world, tell Him that you trust Him to fill your life with good things, to overflowing.

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Saints: Oddballs…or Not

Saint Peter

This is a reflection on the Mass readings of the day.


On this feast of All Saints, there are two common themes that jump out from the readings: 1) The joy of those who choose God and heaven–the saints–is to see the face of God; and 2) Those who choose God and heaven–the saints–really stand out from others in the world as exceptions; they’re really different.

The second point in a way relates to the first. It is already very different to derive happiness primarily from–well–looking at someone. Yet this is what we see in the first reading and the psalm. “Lord, this is the people that longs to see your face,” says the psalm. And in the first reading, we see a horde of white-robed folks standing, looking at God, and saying, “Amen.  Blessing and glory, wisdom and thanksgiving, honor, power, and might be to our God forever and ever.  Amen.”

Most people on the planet seem, at least on the practical level if not on the theoretical, to define happiness as self-enrichment, whether financial or otherwise–development of talents and potential, development of influence, more kids, more exposure to travel, etc.

By contrast, most people wouldn’t see happiness defined as standing and praising someone.

Perhaps the two definitions aren’t as far apart as they seem, though. If we take a closer look at the self-enrichment definition of happiness, it’s all about new experiences, and the ability to have them: Achievements, travel, more luxury, parenthood, etc. The unique attribute of the experience of God is that, unlike anything else, it is infinitely and constantly new, surprising, and wonderful. Whereas praising something that is old hat would be boring, the most spectacular new experiences in our lives evoke spontaneous expressions of awe. For example, seeing Niagara Falls for the first time. This is a dim reflection of what it is like to behold the face of God for eternity.

So much so, that Catholic doctrine defines heaven as the “beatific vision” (beatific = blessed, or happy).

Further on the second point, how the saints are different: In the gospel, Jesus contrasts the ways of the saints sharply with the ways of the world. Meekness, poverty, hunger/thirst, persecution. But the drastic contrast does not lie in any lack of desire for happiness on the part of the saints. Rather, the saints make a decision not to center their aspirations for happiness on experiences that become boring very, very quickly, as is the case with all self-enriching experiences on this earth. Rather, they choose a path that corresponds to enjoying forever the one experience that never becomes tiresome.

Ideas for conversation with the Lord: Reflect on your life and what drives you. Can you truly say that your heart is centered on enhancing the one experience that lasts and brings happiness, which is your relationship with God? Does your life mirror the beatitudes from today’s gospel? Or do you focus on going from novel experience to novel experience, like so many others in the world? How did Jesus live in this regard? Talk to Him about your life and how He may want you to adjust your priorities. Talk to Him about whether or not your relationship with Him really is the pearl of great price, worth sacrificing all other “riches” to obtain.

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An Empty Glass Quenches No Thirst

Empty Glass

This is a reflection on the Mass readings of the day.


Today we get a window into St. Paul’s mindset as he so vehemently contrasts attachment to the Mosaic Law and faith in Christ.

Apparently, some gentile converts to Christianity are actually getting themselves circumcised according to Jewish custom. In doing so, they are converting to Judaism as well as Christianity. St. Paul clearly sees this as an unnecessary hindrance, because in doing so, they then need to learn all the ins and outs of the very detailed Jewish law, which Paul sees as a distraction from their focus on Christ.

But to him, it is something more than a distraction as well. It is a dangerous tendency to believe that salvation partially comes from compliance with the law, as if one saves oneself, at least in part.

When speaking of Mosaic Law, it is often helpful for us Christians to focus on the Ten Commandments. In this context, on the other hand, the problem lies largely with all the detailed prescriptions that extend beyond those Commandments. These details helped form the national identity of the people of God over centuries. But with the help of the Holy Spirit, Paul has come to the realization that they don’t need to play a role for those outside of Judaism who find God and their source of temporal and eternal fulfillment in Christ.

Paul certainly dispenses no one from following the Commandments. Over and over again in his letters, he repudiates various behaviors that run contrary to them. But with equal passion, he cautions against any tendency to equate happiness, fulfillment, salvation, and sanctification with focus on compliance with the Law.

This message remains intensely relevant today. As we strive to purify our actions from sin, we can come to equate this action with our quest for happiness and salvation. Then, there can come a point where we feel like we are just refining, just tweaking in this purification process, no longer gouging out big habits of sin. We may come to wonder why we still feel spiritually restless and very imperfect and unworthy of God. The effect can be something like dry heaves when we are sick–we are still ill, but our body’s effort to purge itself by vomiting proves fruitless.

In such a situation, we can make the same mistake as Paul’s audience in today’s first reading. We can exacerbate the situation by doubling down on our efforts for external perfection, instead of realizing that the problem no longer resides as much with our voluntary actions.

Due to original sin and our personal sin, we are broken deep, deep inside ourselves in a way that can profoundly trouble us in our spiritual life, but which we cannot resolve through our personal ascetic efforts. When we discover this to be the case, we must double down, rather, on our prayer life–not necessary adding hours and hours of time, but rather striving to be as consistent as we can in our time dedicated to prayer each day. Because Jesus is like the sun. When we spend time with Him, not only does He “warm” us spiritually, He can “burn away” slowly those deeper roots of sin and conform our hearts more and more to Himself.

If this is a little bit frustrating, since these aspects of our purification lie outside our control, it is nonetheless very exciting, because the end result is a heart deeply united to Christ, without impediment.

But let us not make the mistake of the Pharisee in today’s Gospel passage, whom Jesus upbraids for his excessive focus on perfection in external compliance. Our Christian happiness will never come from perfection in the habits that we ourselves will control. If we are wise, our efforts for such perfection will lead to humility, because we’ll realize that we can never quite get it exactly right. If we are fools, we will become prideful and smug in our supposed sense of our own perfection, like the Pharisee. But in the end, happiness does not lie in perfection, any more than we can quench our thirst from a perfectly cleansed but empty glass. Only Christ Himself, and our relationship with Him, brings the fulfillment and happiness that we seek.

Ideas for conversation with the Lord: Ask Jesus to send you the Holy Spirit to understand where He wants you to combat sin in your life, and where, on the other hand, He wants you to detach yourself from the effort for external perfection and attach yourself to Him, His mercy, and His saving power. Ask Him above all to infuse you with supernatural Charity, to conform your heart to His, until His obsession with the welfare of your neighbor will infect you and eclipse excessive self-concern.

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Confucius and Jesus

Confucius

This is a reflection on the Mass readings of the day.


Some scholars point out the remarkable similarities between the philosophies of Confucius, of Buddha, of the cream of the Greek/Roman philosophers, of Muhammad, of the Hindu religion, and of Christianity.

All of these contradict, in their way, casual worldliness, and urge their followers to a certain life of asceticism and care for other humans. The Golden Rule is one precept that is cited as an example of something that finds its way into many of these philosophies in one form or another.

If we follow these common teachings, it would seem that we can live a life grounded in a certain common wisdom. Perhaps this way, in living a wise, balanced life, we can attain happiness.

But that is the radical, earth-shattering, paradigm-shifting uniqueness of the Gospel: We learn from Christ that Wisdom and balance bring not happiness, but just a more enlightened form of emptiness. We learn that if we want happiness, we cannot seek it in enlightened isolation: We find it only in a person. The Person. In communion with Christ Himself, and with the Blessed Trinity.

Paul tells us in today’s reading, “I resolved to know nothing while I was with you
except Jesus Christ, and him crucified.” Sure, the Gospel message comes with some moral teachings, which include care for others and a certain asceticism. But these are not happiness–they are merely the entry ticket into the building. Happiness is Jesus Christ, and Him crucified. It lies in the wondrous gift He brings us through His passion, death, and resurrection: in access to the heart of God Himself.

He announces it Himself in today’s gospel, where He reads a scripture passage about bringing glad tidings to the poor, liberty to captives, recovery of sight to the blind–in short, the restoration of human happiness–and states that the passage is fulfilled even as He is reading it (after which He simply sits down).

Philosophy, philosophy about life, is interesting and it has value. But in the end, we must not be fooled: In the end, there is no happiness outside of the intimate, life-giving experience of profound union with Jesus Christ, and Him crucified.

Ideas for conversation with the Lord: Ask Jesus what is most important in His eyes from the body of His teachings. What did He come to do for us? How does He want us to pursue happiness? Can we attain it by simply following the moral teachings of the Church, like a sort of baking recipe? Or is He inviting us to more? Ask Him for the grace to discover your happiness in Him.

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